yesterday i went to have cake and milk.

like N times alone already.

i saw a couple, a young man and his boo,

and i saw just a plate of fish and chips and a glass of drink on the table of theirs.

they are sharing food.

it reminds me of me last time,

where i dun have much money, but went for a date.

i had to starve just to feed my boo,

but it was totally sweetness.

i saw this yesterday,

but i dun feel those sweetness anymore,

but i feel pitiful.

not because i jealous,

but my perception towards relationships had change.

i cant feel love anymore.

all i feel is realistic,

bout money,heartache, cheating.

i have such negative mindset on relationship.

it's not something that is bad.

cause it makes me not a fool anymore.

makes me a more selfish person.

makes me realize the importance of bread,

as a basic of any relationship.

i used to starve, save some money to fulfill other people happiness,

i use to ride a bike, fetch my boo,

and we were all wet when it rains.

but it still kinda romantic that moment when i was 18.

but these things will never happen again.

i swear to god, i had change.

i dun believe must in faith,

i dun believe in promises,

and i really feel sorry for that guy.

cause i know one day, his boo is going to realize how poor he is and left.

what's the reason for us to love a person, while we cant even love ourselves?

there is no point of doing so cause human beings will never satisfy,

that's human nature, animal instincts.

welcome to this cruel world,

where realistic is the game, and money is the momentum.

love, is just something that makes you stronger and go forward.

love is just a stimulation that trigger you to move away from the same spot.

that's it.

if i'm poor, will you love me?

even you will, i will never let you do.

cause it's so cruel to burnt emotion when it sticks.